#ADHD shit

[chaotic-autumn]

never let anyone convince you that your excitement isn't beautiful. what an incredible thing it is, to notice and be overcome by any bright spot in this too-dark world.

it doesn't matter what you're excited about, how small it seems to other people, your joy deserves to grow as big as it can. nurture it. help it grow strong so that when you are hurting your joy can lend you its strength.

[corkinavoid]

Okay, so

I have come to the realization that I, together with my ADHD brain and poor time management, will never be able to write a coherent, conjoined story consisting of more than three chapters. Unless it's hyperfocus, but it's not right now.

So, the decision has been made to give zero fucks about story consistency and just write whatever the fuck my brain cooks up.

That saying, remember me mentioning the Space Adventure and Space Fights? Forget everything I've said about both, I'm writing some completely different shit. It's still cyberpunk shit, though, so that's good.

Oh yes, and the Horror Castle is in the editing process.

[welcome-to-the-agender-agenda]

When you're listening to music and you find that one specific tune that hits the spot and listen to it on repeat for the rest of the day.

[oliver-and-mushrooms]

The tv is completely off but I can hear it buzzing. Its like a fly but it's constant and a bit lower pitched. I often also hear lights. I don't think that's normal.

[petrichor-moss-and-lightning]

I’m full of rage I’m battery acid I’m gnashing my teeth spitting venom at the gates of hell (i have to wash my emotional support bra)

[the-0ther-mother]

7/100 days of productivity

Thursday, 4 July, 2024

Yeah today was not good. I had a microeconomics final today which I'm really hoping i didn't fail but i was so unprepared for it that i can't even tell just how bad i wrote it. My cousin came over to stay and he's gonna be staying for a few days which will not be good for my exam cramming but he's lovely so i don't know.

I had a bit of a cheerful and relieved afternoon and i even managed to rest for a bit and watch one episode of Jeeves and Wooster. That show is a delightful distraction.

Then i sat down to study for my grant exams and then when i was mostly done with it my mum reminded me that i had some papers to print for this exam cuz it's different from my university's exams, and lo and behold, i find out that i didn't actually register myself for this exam (which i should've done two months ago) and i just forgot about the fact that i had forgotten to register myself and i fully believed that i was going to an exam tomorrow. I'm having a whole breakdown about it. This is when those quirky adhd jokes really turn sour cuz this is actually what it's like having adhd and i absolutely loath it sometimes.

Before this happened I even bought a movie ticket for myself to go watch a movie after all of my finals are done. Well, at least that's not lost.

Today wasn't really productive it was just heavy and eventful and none of it was nice. Ended up crying through my Duolingo lesson.

I have a headache and i want to rest.

I have so much to do tomorrow.

I still love you.

Night <3

[6catsandanerdo]

Fellow ADHDers, how do you know whether it's real love or a hyperfixation on the person?

[welcometotheravenclawcommonroom]

Whenever a death eater tried to do legilimens on a bi/multilingual student’s brain, they weren’t able to get much because everything was in an incomprehensible mish-mash of different languages in a pattern completely incomprehensible to the monolingual brain.

[starsthewitch]

if you notice me posting more throughout the weekdays its because im straight TRIPPING off of my adderall meds

dont mind me if i say some nonsensical shit, alright? alright

[welcome-to-the-agender-agenda]

Me: *sitting and scrolling through Pinterest*

Brain: We have energy so we have to do something

Me: Why not shower?

Brain: Not enough energy

Me: Read?

Brain: We can't focus

Me: Read fanfiction? You usually love that

Brain: Boring

Me: Watch a movie?

Brain: We can't just watch a movie and not do anything else as well

Me: Draw whilst watching a movie?

Brain: Too tired

Me:

Brain:

Me: Well can I sit here and scroll on my phone?

Brain: No, you have too much energy!

[oliver-and-mushrooms]

Holy fuck

People.

I have hyper empathy. That's why I get drained so easily in social situations! Oh my god this is a revelation. Amazing. Holy cow. I always knew people tired me out, but I never knew why!

[crypt1dzday0ff]

my OT only just now started actually giving me adhd advice but I only see her once a month and I might be fucked

[grungebutsoft]

so basically because I never get invited to the group hangs (or get invited last minute) everyone hates me. fan-fucking-tastic. like i know i’m usually pretty busy but it’s literally break so i’m not doing anything and i STILL get blacklisted. funny how that all works out.

anyway i love the smell of adhd & rejection sensitive dysphoria in here

[6catsandanerdo]

Sometimes I open up to people about my ADHD and how my brain doesn't cooperate with me and they are like yea it happens to all of us.

But doesn't your brain stop you from putting your finger in boiling water?! Cuz my brain allowed me to move the hard-boiled eggs while still boiling in water on top of the stove with fire underneath it with my finger!! I kept telling myself I shouldn't use my hands to do it, I need to pick a spatula or something but my brain just didn't feel like stopping me.

[crowtatoes]

i wonder if anyone has ever done a study on whether people with audio processing problems are better at rhyming/thinking of similar sounding words on the spot.

because i have to sit there every time someone says something i don't immediately catch flipping frantically through my rolodex of possible misheard words that sound like those other words to try and figure out what the person actually said, because i'm fairly certain "i'd never lose a rat though" wasn't it.

[owls-aesthetic-corner]

8/28 Study day

🌟 Done:

Readings Archeology course

Assignment for queer studies

Readings and Video for Religion Magic and Myth

Comp assignment

job paperwork

🎧 Listening:

Library ambience

📺 Watching:

My Hero Academia

📚 Reading:

Bookshops and Bonedust

I spent way too much money today, but I feel like I'm drowning already. It's only the 3rd day of classes. I need some more time to adjust to being back at Uni and having so many responsibilities. What happened to professors not assigning much work during the first week?? ( ╥ω╥ ) At least I like all of my professors. Hopefully I'll be able to take Latin with my comp professor next time he offers it.

Anyway, I got a lot done today because I work closing shift tomorrow night and everything comes due Friday. I'll have spend time on Saturday and Sunday to get my Wednesday assignments submitted. I finally got my paperwork for work filled out three days late. (＞﹏＜) I'm so not ready for tomorrow to start.

I'm going to start trying to post daily and actually be active on studyblr, but we'll see how well that actually goes lol.